I miss the good old days. Remember when flash was popping? When everyone was obsessed with playing flash games online and usually specifically on Newgrounds. Which brings me to my next point.

Remember the good old days of Newgrounds? Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I just don't see how active the site actually still is generally because I don't use it the way I used to. Now, and for the past few years, I've been uploading a song here and there. Trying to upload everything that I upload to SoundCloud or Youtube. The motivation just isn't there anymore.

Years ago, when I uploaded a song to Newgrounds, I always knew I'd get a review. Sometimes a constructive review, sometimes not. That was perfectly fine. A review was a review to me. Now, I seem to get anywhere between 500 to 1000 "listens" to a song. Yet, that can't be correct. Of those views, I may only get one or two people that actually rate my songs. Of those rates, I have not gotten an actual review in probably TWO years.

I'm not complaining. I just see times changing. I feel like a small artist in a giant pond. Where before, that still held true, but at least people made me feel like I was making music for a purpose. Now I feel like I'm just doing it for myself. That's fine too, but I can't really improve if no one tells me what sounds good or not.

Recently, I finished my second album. On Newgrounds, I have contributed over 150 songs. Making an album was a HUGE deal to me. Took a lot of time and effort. I easily uploaded every song all at once onto SoundCloud, but I lacked motivation to do so on Newgrounds. Just because I see this site dying. Slowly, but surely. 

Again, maybe I'm wrong. This whole thing is not a complaint. I just really really miss the days where I was so excited to show off my new work for the people of Newgrounds to tell me how I did. It still is the only place where anyone ever seemed to care about my work. I barely get listens on SoundCloud. I barely get views on Youtube. I barely commit to even making music anymore. That was a huge part of my life. Maybe I'm just growing up and moving on.